Emergence and freedom – what a beautiful picture!

February 25, 2012

This image is beautiful! I think it says it all when we are attempting to emerge with our own individuality from any mass mind. When we work for an institution we are obliged to merge our sense of self with that organisation. It is difficult to break free psychologically and spiritually so that one emerges like a butterfly to express what is within. I know all about this process because I left my job from a huge public service organisation where I merged my identity with its educational and training goals. Along the way I lost my sense of self. Now I feel I am emerging. Where am I in this process when I look at this wonderful picture? I think at the third stage. However, I could still be cemented in the first stage with my dreams of being free and this comment is one of many illusions I carry in my bag of ego, see the First Initiation post below.
This is the first time I have reblogged so I am not certain if the original blog address is shown. But here it is anyway : http://geerthofman.wordpress.com/2012/02/24/breaking-free/ .




The first time I saw this picture on facebook: I was blown away. What an expression of liberating oneself from…., from what exactly? From some kind of casting mould it seems. The statue depicts a person who expresses a deeply felt connection with his higher purpose, He celebrates being an integral and indispensible part of the universe, ready to fully and unconditionally participate in the perpetual process of co-creation. Allowing himself to wonder, to enjoy life, to laugh, to love and to be free. Free and yet connected to everything else in the universe. An individual yet part of the collective wisdom and intuition of the universe. Free of the shackles of forced uniformity dictated by an obsolete worldview, free from being told what to do by everyone and all. Free from living a life which is not his. Free to accept responsibility for himself and the context in which he…

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The First Initiation – G.I.Gurdjieff

February 24, 2012

G I Gurdjieff



The First Initiation

G.I. Gurdjieff

The following is a translation of words recorded by G. I. Gurdjieff‘s pupils during a meeting in Paris on December 16, 1941.


You will see that in life you receive exactly what you give.  Your life is the mirror of what you are.  It is in your image.  You are passive, blind, demanding.  You take all, you accept all, without feeling any obligation.  Your attitude toward the world and toward life is the attitude of one who has the right to make demands and to take; who has no need to pay or earn.  You believe that all things are your due, simply because it is you!  All your blindness is there!  None of this strikes your attention.  And yet this is what in you keeps one world separate from another world.

You have no measure with which to measure yourselves.  You live exclusively according to “I like” or “I don’t like”; you have no appreciation except for yourself.  You recognize nothing above you—theoretically, logically, perhaps, but actually no.  That is why you are demanding and continue to believe that everything is cheap and that you have enough in your pocket to buy everything you like.  You recognize nothing above you, either outside yourself or inside.  That is why, I repeat, you have no measure and live passively according to your likes and dislikes.

Yes, your “appreciation of yourself” blinds you!  It is the biggest obstacle to a new life.  You must be able to get over this obstacle, this threshold, before going further. This test divides men into two kinds:  the “wheat” and the “chaff.”  No matter how intelligent, how gifted, how brilliant a man may be, if he does not change his appreciation of himself, there will be no hope for an inner development, for a work toward self-knowledge, for a true becoming.  He will remain such as he is all his life.  The first requirement, the first condition, the first test for one who wishes to work on himself is to change his appreciation of himself.  He must not imagine, not simply believe or think, but see things in himself which he has never seen before, see them actually. His appreciation will never be able to change as long as he see nothing in himself.  And in order to see, he must learn to see:  this is the fi rst initiation of man into self-knowledge.

First of all he has to know what he must look at.  When he knows, he must make efforts, keep his attention, look constantly with persistence.  Only through maintaining his attention, and not forgetting to look, one day, perhaps, he will be able to see.  If he sees one time he can see a second time, and if that continues he will no longer be able not to see.  This is the state to be looked for, it is the aim of our observation; it is from there that the true wish will be born, the irresistible wish to become:  from cold we shall become warm, vibrant; we shall by[sic] touched by our reality.

Today we have nothing but the illusion of what we are.  We think too highly of ourselves.  We do not respect ourselves.  In order to respect myself, I have to recognize a part in myself which is above the other parts, and my attitude toward this part should bear witness to the respect that I have for it.  In this way I shall respect myself.  And my relations with others will be governed by the same respect.

You must understand that all the other measures—talent, education, culture, genius—are changing measures of detail.  The only exact measure, the only unchanging, objective real measure is the measure of inner vision.  I see—I see myself—by this, you have measured.  With one higher real part, you have measured another lower part, also real. And this measure, defining by itself the role of each part, will lead you to respect for yourself.

But you will see that it is not easy.  And it is not cheap.  You must pay dearly.  For bad payers, lazy people, parasites, no hope.  You must pay, pay a lot, and pay immediately, pay in advance.  Pay with yourself.  By sincere, conscientious efforts.  The more you are prepared to pay without economizing, without cheating, without any falsification, the more you will receive.  And from that time on you will become acquainted with  your nature. And you will see all the tricks, all the dishonesties that your nature resorts to in order to avoid paying hard cash.  Because you have to pay with your ready-made theories, with your rooted convictions, with your prejudices, your conventions, your “I like” and “I don’t like.”  Without bargaining, honestly, without pretending.  Trying “sincerely” to see as you offer your counterfeit money.

Try for a moment to accept the idea that you are not what you believe yourself to be, that you overestimate yourself, in fact that you lie to yourself.  That you always lie to yourself, every moment, all day, all your life.  That this lying rules you to such an extent that you cannot control it any more.  You are the prey of lying.  You lie, everywhere.  Your relations with others—lies.  The upbringing you give, the conventions—lies.  Your teaching—lies.  Your theories, your art—lies.  Your social life, your family life—lies.  And what you think of yourself—lies also.

But you never stop yourself in what you are doing or in what you are saying, because you believe in yourself.  You must stop inwardly and observe.  Observe without preconceptions, accepting for a time this idea of lying.  And if you observe in this way, paying with yourself, without self-pity, giving up all your supposed riches for a moment of reality, perhaps you will suddenly see something you have never before seen in yourself until this day.  You will see that you are different from what you think you are.  You will see that you are two.  One who is not, but takes the place and plays the role of the other.  And one who is, yet so weak, so insubstantial, that he no sooner appears than he immediately disappears.  He cannot endure lies.  The least lie makes him faint away.  He does not struggle, he does not resist, he is defeated in advance.  Learn to look until you have seen the difference between your two natures, until you have seen the lies, the deception in yourself.  When you have seen your two natures, that day, in yourself, the truth will be born.


A Nano-Flash from reading “The Theory of Celestial Influence”

February 21, 2012

I wrote the stuff below after I read Rodney Collin’s book, “The Theory of Celestial Influence”. I was attempting to put in my own words a ” flash ” his book gave me. Rodney Collin began writing this book during P D Ouspensky’s last illness. He completed it soon after Ouspensky’s death. In fact, Collins believed that much of the book was transmitted to him by Ouspensky both before and after his death. Whether this is true or not doesn’t concern me.

The Theory of Celestial Influence” is one of those books which have thrilled me with the vision of worlds within worlds with onion skinned layers of Eternity and Time. He sets out to reconcile the considerable contradictions of the rational and imaginative minds and of the ways we see the external world versus our inner selves. It is subtitled MAN, THE UNIVERSE, AND COSMIC MYSTERY. You feel that it is an on the spot documentary report of the way the world is. It is staggering in its reach and depth.

For readers familiar with Gurdjieff’s cosmology you will here find further examinations of the systems outlined in by Ouspensky in In Search of the Miraculous. If you get a chance read it.


Let us attempt to visualize the metageometrical form of a four dimensional solid using as a model the planetary world.

From this view when looking into the sky we are actually observing cross sections of the sun and the moon. Planetary movement is no more than our perception of a succession of discrete points along the greater line of time. Yet in order for us to appreciate the magnitude of a four dimensional form we must take as our subject of investigation a sufficient number of points along the timeline of our solar system. But inasmuch as our own individual lives are quite trivial relative to the solar existence we cannot hope to formulate an interesting or even approximately accurate representation unless we view a much longer span of time than that occupied by the mere life of either a human or, for that matter, humanity.

Therefore, let us take as our “point in time” a one million year segment. In order to simplify our model let us first presume that the direction of the sun comprises a straight line. The four dimensional body or form of the sun over a million years would appear to an observer capable of perceiving such a thing as a large burning rod . Bound and tightly coiled about the rod spiral twelve much smaller concentric threads These are the planets. Upon closer examination we detect even smaller ridges spiraling the planetary threads. These are various moons and satellites. We could further complicate our model to include asteroids and comets as they traverse the sun, and as a matter of course we would have to significantly expand this now growing model if we were to place the sun in its proper place, because the sun itself spirals “through space” on its own predetermined path within the much larger galactic cosmos. Thus, instead of a straight rigid rod we would likely observe a curved, twisted, and spiraling rod. In fine, within this new model our time has become space. Imagining space thusly (i.e. in four dimensions) begs the question, “What of a man’s life?” Dissecting tightly wound threads from the central core and subsequently stripping away the outer threads (planets) we would eventually reach the third to the last thread, our earth. 

Living Solar System “Sperm” from book.

If we had a powerful enough viewing instrument we might discover various geologic ages. If our microscope were capable of finer resolution we might even be able to discern the age of man. As yet, an individual man, or even a single civilization would not be apparent. Perhaps certain age old relics would be observable such as the Sphinx or the Great Pyramids. And maybe the period between 1945 and 1965 would somehow be detected as the many above ground atomic explosions conducted by the U.S., U.S.S.R., and China were measured as strange bursts of nuclear energy.

Still, the life of any individual would not be missed. The wars, deaths, and all the suffering of humanity would be a minor thing indeed. And what we revere in our science, religion, and art would be nothing. In reality and if such a thing were possible it would be even less than nothing since we must remember that we are dealing with an almost instantaneous fragment of the life of the sun, i.e., a mere one million years.

Starry, starry questions?

February 21, 2012

Does astrology really let me hear the echo of bells on Earth? Do stars really pull the heart strings of a doe and petals of a rose? Is my life only one long bale of circumstantial strings held by mind stuff that is on the same pallete as every other bale of humanity? Whose pallete, and, whose Farm do we belong? The bale of wheat that we are according to this image must be food for someone or something. Perhaps not food but material or ingredients. a part of a recipe Man eating gods? Why not? After all we have a major religion that practises on a regular basis god eating.

River of Text

February 21, 2012

Well, this river of text is making me get homesick for a bit

of feeling. Not that it is wrong to float down a stream of

words. It’s only so, if you forget to paddle.


Sometimes, it is easy to get lost in the whirling drain hole of concepts

that go round and round and then gurgle down the drain of memory.

But if there is a kitchen sink drain then obviously it is not a river.

Random Ramble

February 16, 2012

Doors flower here, his secret parents told him a long time ago.

He was standing by the driftwood gate near the rusting letter box.

Yes, the one where the letters I sent didn’t arrive.

Above him the sky, a heart trip blue, blue Trumpet Justice.

Smoke symbols near the mountain top.

Smoke journey, curling language, wording of clip clap foot steps and sacred sighs …

Innocence, Earth moments, Venus breaths, Martian chaos.

The world turned a few degrees

Into the losing night light he raised the candle

tattooed snow cobra fish moon mind

Australian Mining Industry wants to take over our Media

February 4, 2012

It wasn’t enough that they convinced the Australian people that a tax on their super profits was a bad thing because it was far more important that Gina Rhinehart and the others get super rich rather than give the Australian people funds to help the disabled, funds to give Australians Dental Care along the lines of Medicare, funds for hospitals and schools …..no, their $20 million advertising war chest wasn’t enough. Well, it was enough to get rid of a Prime Minister – Kevin Rudd, and for his replacement to water down the original idea. The original Mining Tax would have given the Australian people enough extra money to fund much of the above.

I remember the image on TV, these billionaires chanting, sounding like, “Billionaires united, we’d never be defeated!!” with all these pathetic little people carrying pristine clean, fresh off the printing press placards supporting the billionaires. Unbelievable! Until you remember the same kind of images of Tea Partiers in the USA. The Tea Party, it would be OK if they used the word Tea to mean what it meant in the 1950’s, the street name for marijuana because it would be a joke. Alas, it doesn’t mean that and when they talk about the movement being a grass roots one, well, it has now been called an astroturf movement. The right wing in Australia has taken any lessons from the Tea Party and have imported them into the Australian context.

The truth has just come out via a video recording about what the Australian 1% really are planning. They want a Fox News kind of media that is a propaganda machine for the 1% super rich and right wing free market believers. In many ways they already have it in Australia with Murdoch owning over 70% of news outlets. However, this isn’t enough. They want to take over Fairfax which runs the Sydney Morning Herald, The Age and the Australian Financial Review. This means that the 1% (actually we are talking about mining magnates that are probably in the top 0.0000001%) will have ALL media outlets sympathetic to climate change denialists and billionaires who believe that corporations are people.

One of the most worrying aspects to all this is the following quote :

“Fascism should more properly be called corporatism because it is the merger of state and corporate power.” — Benito Mussolini

This is happening in the USA, UK and now most of Europe. In Australia it is beginning to do so in a big way and if the conservative Liberal/National Coalition wins the next election it will be done. Corporatism / Corporatocracy / Fascism does not necessarily have to embrace racism, though it does most of the time. As long as there is access to cheap labour, the transnational corporations are happy. This is why Gina Rhinehart and her buddies are keen to have temporary visa holder workers in their mines.

Watch the video below and see why Rhinehart is buying Fairfax shares. Watch it and make a vow that you will do whatever you can, in a peaceful way to stop them. Labor are you listening?


Gina Rhinhart at the Billionaires' Demo Against the Mining Super Profit Tax

Billionaires United Will Never Be Defeated!!! Mining Tax Rally in Perth, Western Australia